We have been on this airplane for hours on end, squished between our neighbors and anxious to set our eyes on what lies outside the plane. The pilot comes over the loudspeaker ‘Attention all passengers: we have arrived in beautiful Holland. Unfortunately, we will not be able to exit the plane for a few more hours due to complications on the runway. Please feel free to move about the cabin, and we thank you for your patience. Again, welcome to Holland.’
Tuesday was the day. The day our journey back to full health was to begin. The day Joey’s cancer would begin to be killed off by chemo. The day we could start looking towards the end of the tunnel. However, on Monday afternoon (in true Monday fashion) we received a phone call from the hospital saying his chemo would be delayed until Thursday due to an insurance conflict. The day suddenly became Thursday…and today it became Monday.
After so many conversations between the hospital and insurance company, I am still not 100% sure why my husband isn’t being allowed to begin chemo when promised. I have no idea why some man in Utah gets to decide what medicine codes will be covered and which won’t. I have no idea why we can’t start without the insurance company’s go ahead; quite frankly, that irritates me to no end. But, what I do know is that God cares. He cares that we are frustrated and scared and angry and hurt. He cares that my heart breaks watching my husband deal with this sickness. He cares that Joey has to go another week hurting and uncomfortable because something didn’t go exactly right. He cares for us more than we will ever know or understand, and that is what will bring peace to our hearts. That is, in fact, the only thing that brings peace.
‘Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?’ Matthew 6:25-27
So, it currently looks as if Joey will begin chemo Monday. Joey and I are continuously thankful for every single prayer and word of encouragement we receive. Thank you all for the support you show and love you share; we could never thank enough. Please continue to be in prayer for us as we wait patiently for God’s timing and seek peace during a time of chaos.